The Road To Kingdom Come

So I met with the doctor to plead my case. And she listened. So as of now, I am back on the medication that I was on when released from the hospital which seemed to be helping me to stabilize. After just 3 days I am feeling much better. For that I am truly grateful. [...]

And the saga continues…
First I called the pharmacist to ask what recourse I had to access the brand name Effexor. He told me that if I presented a written prescription from my doctor indicating the brand name must be used. They would then override the previous prescription and give me the the “good stuff.” He [...]

I know that this is starting to sound like a pharmaceutical forum but for better or worse, my life has turned into a pharmaceutical fog.
I still am having some “challenges” with the Lamictal. It makes me feel very strange. I feel spaced out and kind of loopy. I have headaches and I usually do not [...]

Well, my appointment with the doctor was a “good news” and “not so bad news” sort of thing. She did agree to leave me on the Effexor for now which was a great relief. Frankly, I wasn’t going to get off it no matter what she said but is nice she cooperated. She still wants [...]

I think that it is time to start blogging again. Not because I want to but because I need to. Just the thought of thinking through things and then having to type them out is tiring. But I can’t continue to have feelings and thoughts bouncing around in my head without a proper vehicle through [...]

It is hard for me to believe that I am sitting here typing this post. I have just returned from two consecutive hospital stays. One was for 6 days in a facility in Delaware and one was at a local hospital here in PA. I won’t even attempt to get into much detail about the [...]

My dearest friends,
I have had a breakdown and just returned from week in hospital. Living on a minute by minute basis. Many extraordinary problems. Sincerely, no exaggeration.
As we all must, I am sharing the passion of Christ. The order of my passion, though, is slightly different. I have been on my God-assigned cross crying to [...]

There is much to be said but now is not the time to say it for many different reasons. However, I feel truly obligated to at least say I am here. I want/need to say many things when I am able.

What I had been led to believe would be some sort of intensive evaluation of my situation and some insightful and proactive recommendations turned out to be a total bust. It was nothing more than a glorified doctor’s appointment. I filled out a lot of forms, was interviewed by a young intern for 15 minutes, [...]

Tomorrow morning I begin whatever sort of program I’m beginning. I’m really not sure what I’ve got myself into but it is not without a little trepidation and some fear that I start this.
I need to get better. These last few days have demonstrated what I difficult state I am in. I have become a [...]