The Road To Kingdom Come

Today is the last day of the preparation for my Consecration to Mary. The last week has focused on the “Knowledge of Jesus.” The preparation process has been rather difficult and has certainly had its ups and downs. The first few weeks were rather exhilarating with the sudden and complete remission of my stomach problems. It was a thrill to once again desire food and engage with others socially. I felt like I had been given a great blessing and I was returning to my old self. Then, “wham!”

The past couple of weeks have been right back to the same old ugly, raunchy stomach with fatigue and situational anxiety rolled in for good measure. And I feel like it has been a challenge to my intention to move forward with the formal consecration but that intention has not wavered.

In a little while I will read the writings and prayers for the final day’s preparation. Tomorrow is the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes and the day that I specifically selected to make the consecration. It is also a Thursday and the Dominican Nuns have a Mass every Thursday evening at 5PM. During this Mass I will receive the Eucharist and afterward I will formally perform the “Consecration of oneself to Jesus Christ, Wisdom Incarnate, through the hands of Mary.”

I can then only do my best to come to Jesus in all things “by Mary, with Mary, in Mary and for Mary.” My life, body and soul, will be in her hands. I am deeply grateful and quite unworthy of this honor and opportunity. I pray that Mary will take this weak, sinful and confused soul and, by the grace of God, help me to become whatever it is that the Lord desires for me. I pray with all my heart for patience, perseverance and faith. I offer my sufferings for the conversion of sinners and for the forgiveness of my sins.

Oh Mary, conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to Thee.